The Director's Cut
Are you in the driving seat of your movie?
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I have recently been going through a tough time, nothing is quite going the way I would like it; I am out of the groove in my business, my generally robust health is faltering and some of the most stable people in my life are having their own difficulties.
My inclination is to try and work out why - perhaps Mercury is retrograde? or I got out of the wrong side of the bed? or this is a karmic pay back of some sort? I have been here before and I have learnt that this thinking does nothing but wind me up, it affects my sleep, my breathing and also how I show up in company - brow furrowed and intense.
What has helped my sanity is to conclude that it doesn’t really matter why, the truth is that the bottom line is nothing is easy right now, it hurts and I don’t like hurting!
And that, my friends, is my enemy - my resistance to what is. At times like this that surrender, beautifully articulated by Ekhart Tolle, as ‘the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life’ comes into its own.
What I am noticing about surrender, is it’s softness, it’s quietness, it’s stillness. It is, when I allow it, a place to rest, to swing in the hammock of time becoming the observer of the busy buzzing of my winged thoughts.
Not, however, the industrious humming of bees in lavender but rather angry, grief-stricken, poor-me thoughts, knife stabbing thoughts of revenge and retribution, emerald envy and glinting jealousy, savage flagellation and chaotic keening and catastrophising - it’s a mess, my consciousness is chaos.
Ekhart also wisely says ‘observe your thoughts, don’t believe them’
In the cinema of surrender I watch this movie as an observer, It is emotionally gut wrenching and gripping - it is a ‘good movie’ - it is a story of unfairness and injustice, of innocent mistakes and ill advised reactions, there is tension in every scene, is this be a story of demise or redemption?
And this, my friends, is the gift of surrender - the distance to see that this is my movie my story and that I am the one who decides the ending.
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